If you’ve read this blog over the course of last week, you have probably seen quite a few emotions from me that you may not ordinarily see. I’ve been a bit more open than I usually have been, and I figured it’d make a better read and others my get some insight on themselves or a friend also.
In the past couple days, I’ve probably watched more wrestling live than I had in almost 3 months. It was by design because I was trying to figure out my purpose with being in the business at this stage of my life and what my future holds.
In that couple of days, I’ve learned a lot about myself and the influence (however small) that I’ve had in the business. When I got started I set a couple of goals with the main one (and only one I can really quantify) is getting a WWE contract, which happened. The other two are a bit more nebulous:
1. I wanted to be fun to work with. No matter what I was doing in the match, I wanted to make sure that I did whatever I could to make it just a little bit better and more memorable.
2. I wanted to be a positive influence on whoever I could help. The wrestling business can be a real beast physically, mentally and emotionally. I didn’t want to add to it.
Over the last couple of months, I really wasn’t sure if I was really accomplishing these two and there aren’t really set parameters to definitively say yes I have or no I haven’t.
This weekend I’ve seen just about everyone in the OVW locker room, and it was the best I had felt in a long time. The energy felt better and I was genuinely happy to see everyone. I was also reminded why I got started and why I came back initially. I’m not perfect and I haven’t made a ton of money, but I have had experiences that most wrestling fans (maybe 0.5%) ever get to experience. To be able to pass what little I do understand along to guys who are still out there striving to live out their wildest dream, is not only an honor, but it’s also fun for me.
Sometimes you never know until you do. You never know what you’re capable of until you are faced with an uncomfortable choice. Make no mistake, I was really uncomfortable at first last night for no reason.
I never would have learned any of this stuff this weekend had my wonderful wife had not convinced me to go to these shows. Yet another reason why my wife is awesome!